Trust & Intuition Vs. Uncertainty & Lack of Experience: Childbirth and Labor
Today I am 36 weeks pregnant and things are still going great but things are also changing and happening with my body that I am noticing and (according to N) I am spending too much time worrying about. LOL.
I am all about following intuition and listening to my body’s signals which is why I am going the direction I am with labor and delivery. This means accepting and not fearing the unknown right? Part of me is there.
On the other hand, for a first time mom there is lots of stuff you haven’t experienced yet so you wonder about how it will be for you. Will I know labor has begun, what will contractions be like, how will I handle it all etc… Until I am at The Farm and in the company of my midwife I’ll also be stressing about all the unknowns.
Lets see, for starters baby has totally dropped which makes more room for my lungs and organs. With the baby dropping I’ve also noticed some new kinds of back pain. Is the back pain due to my messed up tailbone or is it muscular and a normal for a ready to pop preggo?
On my quest for information I learned that some people mistake early contractions for a backache. So, am I having contractions and should I be on the way to The Farm now???
I’ve also noticed that while standing and sometimes while sitting I get pretty lightheaded, like something is pinching off blood supply. So is that also a skeletal issue in my back or is the weight of my uterus just pressing on my vena cave or something? Should I be worried or should I just adapt and adjust?
I’ve told myself, “Talina, there are obvious signs when you are in labor, you know things like the water breaking or loosing the mucus plug.” Then on the other hand there is the fact that some women don’t have their membranes (waters) rupture at the start of labor. Also, with the mucus plug some women begin to loose theirs many weeks before labor, some will loose it just as labor is starting. So I am having a daily back and forth battle with myself over my observations. I’d like to blame the hormones.
Honestly though, how is a girl to know she is in labor for sure? I can’t be having my cervix checked everyday to see if dialation has begun and that seems like it is the only way to be 100% sure. And if someone else says “Oh, trust me you’ll just know” I am going to scream!