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The post where I realize it’s been six weeks!

Six weeks seems like a long time when you are in that half-asleep-half-awake state following the arrival of a new baby. Yet it seems such a short time when you think “wow, I’m six weeks pregnant, only eight and a half more months to go”.

And no, I’m not pregnant again! What I mean is my baby boy is six weeks old and it has been six weeks of hibernation for me, both in real life and here online. Heck even my next door neighbor feels like she hasn’t seen me in ages (and she hasn’t!). Of course the arctic weather has only encouraged my hermit behavior.

My husband was blogging the other day and linking back here to my blog regarding the birth of our son and our wedding and he mentioned that he felt better after visiting my blog. He hadn’t blogged in like four weeks, I’ve been offline for about six now so I’ve been the bigger slacker apparently!

Things are going well, I know the lack of posting leaves many to wonder though 😛

Taking the month of December to really focus on my little (not so little anymore) family was really the right thing to do for me.

2013 was truly a year of letting go for me, in many ways. Much was no longer in harmony with my core desires and intentions and it was just time to let those things fall away. Many weights have been lifted in a sense making room for the new possibilities…

We are settling in nicely as a family of five. My three kiddos under the age of 5 do keep me busy but things are feeling more and more comfortable each day. Grayson is a great baby! Thankfully, my efforts to heal my gut and to keep away from trigger foods (GLUTEN is the biggie) has been for something… Grayson’s digestive situation and his comfort is not a repeat of Adalyn’s babyhood. We learned, made changes and they seem to be for the better – still.

Everly is blossoming so much right now. She’s loving being able to help mom with her siblings and she’s also taking to all sorts of food prep tasks here at home. She’s also learning to read, spell and write words, by her own motivation. We just realized she’s going to be old enough to begin kindergarden this year!

The girls are adjusting well to being big sisters and we haven’t had too many jealous older sibling issues although my mommy guilt is in full swing. I *want* to be able to give each kiddo all my time and focus and I’ve been finding myself more and more thinly stretched, it breaks my heart sometimes. I guess I’m getting an education in the Your-Parents-Do-The-Best-They-Can reality that I never quite understood as a kid.

Nathan and I are really examining our goals and intentions for our future. We agree that it is time we made the changes needed to secure the future we want. No more excuses or ties to less important things holding us back. We are lucky, we have a clear vision of where we want to be, but getting there hasn’t been straightforward or easy by any means. And as the years pass and our lives change, things gradually shift and become clearer. It seems to me we are at a crossroads (or rather a busted bridge) where a giant leap of faith is required to continue moving forward. Possibly even a shift in our ways of thinking about how we’ll make do financially as we move forward.

I am personally ready to take another giant risk to secure what we desire, so there may be some interesting happenings in 2014 to share with you as we press on and strive to live off the land more. 

What are you striving for in 2014? Much of the same or something else entirely?




<p>A city girl turned farmer. Yes women do farm ;) Owner and operator of direct to consumer, Ryder Family Farm in Southern Illinois.<br /> Wearing many hats I'm also a mother to 3, a wife, a yogi, a farmer, a 4-H & Girl Scout leader & hospitality manager.</p>

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